It is incredible how much perspective you gain as a parent – Mommyhood has allowed me to truly appreciate and value my mom and all her wonders; and due to it I have my utmost respect for all mothers. Having said that, I think it’s impossible to show my mom how much gratitude and love I have for her – I do tell her often, but not enough – because I truly adore her, and Emma and I are blessed to have her in our lives.
As for me, I feel like the luckiest mom in the world for having Emma. For mother’s day she recited a short poem to me – one that she was taught in school. It was amazing watching her recite the poem and do all the hand gestures that went along with it. The best part of it was how proud she was of herself when she finished it – as was I. She doesn’t seize to amaze me every single day :). The poem would have been enough but she also gave me some flowers and butterflies she colored in school that say “Mom I love you” and her handprint on a heart which I placed on my desk at work. The heart says – “My mom gave me life, gave me love and I repay her with my love and my heart. I love you, Emma.” Even though her teacher wrote those words, I know Emma means them – even if she doesn’t fully understand them. The other day she came up to me and said “Mommy, I love you so much!” and then proceeded to hug me. Ohh how I want to hold on to those moments… Emma means the world to me and I couldn’t be happier to be her mom.
My daughter is growing up and I can’t help but love every minute of it – yes, I miss a ton of things that she leaves behind as she grows, but I also love all the things she gains – like the things she comes up with and the things she says. Now she can actually have a conversation with me – Although more often than not, she digresses – just like mommy. She is becoming interested in activities and things that we both enjoy – like arts and crafts – and when I am in the kitchen she often offers to help (even though in reality it’s not really help at all) but it’s the intention that counts. She is singing songs – pretending she knows the words – and hugging and telling me she loves me often, and it can’t get better than that.
How do I know my daughter is growing?
1. She has moved on from Minnie mouse and is now obsessed with princesses.
2. She reverts things I say to her, for example, she now often says– “Mom I am asking you a question – are you listening?”
3. She corrects me – all the time – and I must admit, she is right 70 % of the time
4. She wants to do everything on her own – Finally!
5. She has a crush on a boy – I mean, she doesn’t even know it – but she talks about him every time I pick her up from school. Not sure I am looking forward to the teenage years…
She is turning 3 soon so I can’t wait to see what that age will bring – What are the best and most difficult moments of that stage?
When Emma was born I was consumed by an immense love for her – which continues to grow on a daily basis – and regardless of how stressed out or frustrated I get – with the world or with her – it never takes away from the happiness she gives me every single day. I can be having the worst kind of day but when I see her little face and her smile, all I feel is joy. My heart tingles when she kisses me or tells me she loves me and it seems implausible to live without her.
What is being Emma’s mom like? It is the most precious gift – one that challenges me every single day, that makes me grow in ways I didn’t even think were possible, that teaches me unexpected things about the world and about myself and allows me to truly understand the meaning of love and view the world with a new set of eyes.
I am very grateful and extremely lucky and blessed to be her Mom. What was life like without my daughter? At this point, I am not sure, because life would be incomplete without her. Yes, she drives me nuts sometimes, but she is my little miracle.
A friend of mine posted this quote on her facebook page and I thought it was great – It is good to read quotes that serve as inspiration and remind you of things that you might already be aware of but need to work on.
Sometimes it is very hard for me to let go of the past and as much as I think I am over something, it somehow manages to reemerge – only meaning that I’ve failed at really letting go of it. But to move forward, it must be done, dwelling in the past is not positive and I want to fully embark on a road of positivity and motivation. Living this way can only lead to happiness and I would love to pass this along to Emma… I want her to be self- motivated, to feel like she can achieve anything she wants, to live out her dreams without fear or regrets. To learn from her mistakes and take constructive criticism but never let negativity take over, and to look at everything with wise eyes – as life lessons – because living that way will only contribute to her happiness.
I wanted to share this picture of my daughter and her cousin – Aden. They both look adorable. Unfortunately, this is the only picture I have of my daughter on Easter (taken by my brother-in-law) as I took 0 pictures.
I remember when I took at least 10 pictures of Emma per day, so much so that I filled up an entire album with pictures of her from 0-3 months of age – I can’t believe that I now forget to take even 1 on special occasions such as Easter… What is wrong with me? I attribute Mommyhood as a contributor to my forgetfulness, but this is UNACCEPTABLE.
Besides, my husband and I bought ourselves a new camera for Christmas, which has so far only been used for Christmas eve and day and on our recent vacation. I need to work on using it more often and learn how to properly utilize all the features. Easter would have been the perfect opportunity to work on it but at this point any day will do.
Clearly, I tried to cut back on the pictures after realizing that I had over a 1,000 of Emma’s first year, which was a little overwhelming. However, at this point I have gone the other extreme – with almost none – Incredible! Photos serve as memories and they are always nice to look back on so I will work on getting to a middle ground – Photos on special occasions and/or cute moments and of course, on Emma’s request.