During the month of June I decided to take some continuing education classes on something I loved to explore but never did. I took some Graphic Design courses and although challenging, I learned a lot. It was difficult not picking up my daughter after school for 2 days and coming home having her sleeping but she got a chance to bond more with her dad and I got some needed time for myself. I met some wonderful and talented people in the class, most of which came from different parts of the world and had a Graphic Design degree. It is funny, because on a Starbuck’s cup there is a quote from Oprah, which states, “No experience is ever wasted. Everything helps.” So little by little I am learning new things and starting to do what I love. To end June, my daughter fell from a hammock and had to get stitches. As much as I wanted her to never break a bone, never hurt, and never get any scars, I knew it would happen eventually, I just think it happened too early. I was totally not composed and neither was my husband. It was hard to see her hurt, and to be totally honestly, I think it pained me more than it did her.
As for July, my nephew was born and I couldn’t be happier. My sister has accustomed herself to the motherhood role fairly quickly and at ease and the little one is a bundle of joy for all of us. My daughter is in love with him she tells me she has three babies, Aden (her cousin on my husband’s side), George Esteban (my sister’s son) and Kaleb (her crush in school). She loves to just stare at him and frankly, it’s adorable. To finish up July, it was my birthday and I really thought this year was going to be the beginning of a no celebration birthday – because ultimately that’s kind of how it becomes. However, I am happy to report that it was not. I really enjoy my birthdays and I don’t want to loose the fact that I can treat myself and give myself time on a day that is mine to celebrate – not for being a mother – but for being me, and I think that it is important.
August has been a month full of surprises and I am now starting to get ready for my daughter’s birthday in September…
These are the wonders of motherhood, we manage to do so much, and yet, I think our biggest flaw is not giving ourselves enough credit. Sometimes I step back from it all and see myself in amazement – Not everything I do is perfect, in fact, most things are not, but I do try my hardest to make them as best as possible and I do give them my all, and to me, that makes it worth it, and that makes it great. I learned that I can’t be too hard on myself. I do a lot and want a lot and I am accomplishing everything little by little.
For most of April and May I was prepping for my sisters Baby shower – which took place three weeks ago. The theme of the shower was Nautical and the main colors were green and blue. I made the invitations for the shower because it was my chance to be creative and personalize something for someone I adore. (For blogging purposes, I covered personal information with white paper)
For the decorations, I made a banner from the backside of the invitations, we hung green and blue pom poms and made little flags with washi tape and a cut out of the boats from the invitations I created as toppers for the cupcakes. We got the cake made with the colors of the theme and my mom painted a boat she had at home to put as the topper. My mom also made amazing center pieces and an anchor banner which we put at the bar – it came out amazing!
For the favors we bought Essie nail polishes in different tones of blue, white and pastel green. We put a label on them as a reminder of the shower, colored life savers in green and blue, placed them in white bags and tied them up.
I also painted a whale with my nephew’s name on it and framed it so that my sister can put it in his room (picture coming soon).
The shower turned out very nice. I am glad my sister was happily surprised and delighted when she saw everything – It wasn’t anything crazy, but it was definitely made with love.
These are the “Thank you” cards she will be sending out –
And now, I am anxiously awaiting for my little nephew to arrive…
It is incredible how much perspective you gain as a parent – Mommyhood has allowed me to truly appreciate and value my mom and all her wonders; and due to it I have my utmost respect for all mothers. Having said that, I think it’s impossible to show my mom how much gratitude and love I have for her – I do tell her often, but not enough – because I truly adore her, and Emma and I are blessed to have her in our lives.
As for me, I feel like the luckiest mom in the world for having Emma. For mother’s day she recited a short poem to me – one that she was taught in school. It was amazing watching her recite the poem and do all the hand gestures that went along with it. The best part of it was how proud she was of herself when she finished it – as was I. She doesn’t seize to amaze me every single day :). The poem would have been enough but she also gave me some flowers and butterflies she colored in school that say “Mom I love you” and her handprint on a heart which I placed on my desk at work. The heart says – “My mom gave me life, gave me love and I repay her with my love and my heart. I love you, Emma.” Even though her teacher wrote those words, I know Emma means them – even if she doesn’t fully understand them. The other day she came up to me and said “Mommy, I love you so much!” and then proceeded to hug me. Ohh how I want to hold on to those moments… Emma means the world to me and I couldn’t be happier to be her mom.
A friend of mine posted this quote on her facebook page and I thought it was great – It is good to read quotes that serve as inspiration and remind you of things that you might already be aware of but need to work on.
Sometimes it is very hard for me to let go of the past and as much as I think I am over something, it somehow manages to reemerge – only meaning that I’ve failed at really letting go of it. But to move forward, it must be done, dwelling in the past is not positive and I want to fully embark on a road of positivity and motivation. Living this way can only lead to happiness and I would love to pass this along to Emma… I want her to be self- motivated, to feel like she can achieve anything she wants, to live out her dreams without fear or regrets. To learn from her mistakes and take constructive criticism but never let negativity take over, and to look at everything with wise eyes – as life lessons – because living that way will only contribute to her happiness.
I wanted to share this picture of my daughter and her cousin – Aden. They both look adorable. Unfortunately, this is the only picture I have of my daughter on Easter (taken by my brother-in-law) as I took 0 pictures.
I remember when I took at least 10 pictures of Emma per day, so much so that I filled up an entire album with pictures of her from 0-3 months of age – I can’t believe that I now forget to take even 1 on special occasions such as Easter… What is wrong with me? I attribute Mommyhood as a contributor to my forgetfulness, but this is UNACCEPTABLE.
Besides, my husband and I bought ourselves a new camera for Christmas, which has so far only been used for Christmas eve and day and on our recent vacation. I need to work on using it more often and learn how to properly utilize all the features. Easter would have been the perfect opportunity to work on it but at this point any day will do.
Clearly, I tried to cut back on the pictures after realizing that I had over a 1,000 of Emma’s first year, which was a little overwhelming. However, at this point I have gone the other extreme – with almost none – Incredible! Photos serve as memories and they are always nice to look back on so I will work on getting to a middle ground – Photos on special occasions and/or cute moments and of course, on Emma’s request.
It’s true, mommies are not allowed to get sick – Of course, we inevitably do get sick, but we need to go on pretending like we are not. It sucks sometimes, but the fact that we have no time to think about our sickness eliminates our need to linger on the aches, pains and/or fever, and that’s a good thing since it helps us “forget” that we are ill.
This past week was a tough one – because what’s worse than having a sick child? Getting sick along with them. Emma was unable to go to school for most of the week as she had a really high fever. She had to take antibiotics and only began to feel better by Friday, at which point I was getting sick. It was nice spending time together, although it would have been more productive had we not been sick; and even though Emma wasn’t feeling well, she still managed to have more energy than me… My house is undoubtedly a mess as I had to come up with ways to entertain Emma while still getting some “rest” – which only meant not having to run around as much. Fortunately, we are much better now and are looking forward for the Spring weather to stick around.
Activities I did with Emma while we were both sick –
1. Watched movies – No effort on my part aside from answering random questions.
2. Read books – It is always relaxing and a nice bonding time.
3. Played hide and seek – She hid and then ran to me once I finished counting!
4. Decorated Easter eggs
5. Colored – what 2-year-old doesn’t like to color?
6. Played with play-doh – a little messy…
7. Poked cardboard boxes – Emma likes to draw and make holes on boxes with a pen. I usually draw things and she tries to trace them by poking holes.
8. Played with stickers – she enjoyed putting them on my husband and I the most. She said she wanted to decorate us.
9. Pretty much let her do whatever she wanted – very, very messy!
10. Took long naps – it was amazing! I had given up on the idea that this was still possible!